My name is Xero. I am a long-time Ragnarok Online player, former Dota 2 semi-professional player, semi-professional Heroes of the Storm player, freelance shoutcaster, casual Hearthstone player, and e-Sports event manager, and this is my story.
It is a long story. You might not agree with it. It might not be accurate in places. My forum account might be banned for it, but this is my story.
I joined DreamerRO from nearly the start in 2009, but have also played in Ancient and Spiritus (HaZe's old servers). My memory is foggy of this period, but I remember my Abracadabra sorcerer's name was MVP KinG! Back then, Ayothaya was the main town, and everything was quite happening there. I don't really remember people from that period, but one particular player influenced me the most. He was Xero, a Lord Knight, and he was friendly to me and showed me the basics of the gaming.
Fast forward a couple of months, where I eventually went on a hiatus due to exams and real life. Imagine my surprise when I came back and asked around for Xero, only to find out he died (or something tragic, but nothing can be more tragic than death, right?). From that moment on, I started naming my characters <Class name> Xero, as a sort of reminiscence for the original Xero. That name has stuck till now, across my multiple games. I've hung around with some Assassin Cross named Sephiria, because I met her wearing the same headgear as me at that time (Punk Beanie and Red Imperial Wings), she became my "sister". I followed her around to Supremacy (an old and famous guild back then), before having some fun in my own guild for WoE (Heaven).
End 2011 (or sometime near), I volunteered myself to join the staff, who was led by GM Palk at that time, as I was already quite knowledgeable in RO mechanics and technical stuff, so I figured I could be helpful. In this period of time, I've also joined No Fear, under Vulcan Canon (Bisma)'s command at that time. Back in the days, Star Gladiator breakers were everywhere because you could use High Jump, and Emperium HP was quite low, so it was basically a race throughout the entire WoE. I guess I was quite outspoken and rash at that time as well, as I've gathered a bunch of haters, mostly from the old The Elements guild, and this is where things started to get messy.
October 2012, the haters were getting to me. I had over -700 forum reputations thanks to the few people who constantly de-repped my posts, even though I was being helpful. To hide from all that, I posted a huge goodbye thread to hide from all the hate (I didn't actually quit until roughly 2 weeks later). During that time, I pretended to be "Xero's cousin" which I pretended to give the account to (I guess that caused me to broke the rule of "sharing SP account") but it didn't last that long as real life came once again.
Fast forward to end of July 2013, where I decided to play again (look at the amount of -reps and you'll figure out why I quit in the first place). I started as low-key as possible, but ended up in my old job as a Support Player too. During this time towards the end of 2014, I was mainly jumping around different classes, jack-of-all-trades, that sort of stuff.
Interesting things start in 2015. Now, SPs are usually promoted to GMs if they're qualified and have been active long enough. A year and more passed (2 if you count my first stint), and no news of any promotion of the sort. In this time, I thought I'd do some things to make myself more qualified for the job. I started researching deeper into eAthena scripting and started to report players for any sort of rule-breaking. I mean literally any sort of rule breaking. I've lost count of the people I've reported for farming / macro / any offense.
This, of course, garnered me a lot of haters as well. A particular group was banned for rPE abuse in Hades, and that's where shit started to happen. Towards March 2016, I've put several people in permaban status (a few of them have already been unbanned - how do you get unbanned from permaban for farming, beats me). In March 2016, I've gotten Tobias Eaton (a Hall of Famer) banned for using Freewalk. I've also caught the original rPE abuser in Hades again for rPE. However, due to my stupidity, I also had myself caught for using Freewalk as well. Hence, my first to-be-permaban started here. However, after some GM discussions, they've reduced the ban for using Freewalk to 2 weeks, which includes Tobias as well, as it wasn't "gamebreaking" enough. With that, I survived my first ban.
Now, the group of haters did not stop there. On 1st of April, as I was still trying to go for a GM position, was trying to bait a RMT-er into providing evidence to ban him (LINK MY DICK or whatever his name was). I posted some RMT-stuff on the Facebook group to try and gather evidence, and a player from the group of haters reported me in 2 minutes. At that time, the GM team was getting a lot of flak for "trying to protect me", hence I took the ban without much argument from my side. This was the end of • Nova •.
My friends provided me with an old account and items to play with, and I started lowkey as Inferno. However, my low profile did not last long as I participated in a PVP tournament and was recognized by people (silly me). Soon, I was banned again - for modifying Hades sprite to make it easier to be targeted. Hence my second permaban. At this point I was tired and left the server again.
Fast forward, August 2016. I was doing my own things when suddenly 1285123123 people entered the DreamerRO Discord channel. Before that, it was mainly me hanging around as Discord was ded. But the rush of people participating in HaZe's hosted event (as well as someone calling "Xero noob sorc") triggered me to return to Dreamer. With help of some friends, I quickly came back to the server, playing several characters before settling down to the class I was most comfortable with, a Sorcerer named Nosta|gic.
Things were going good for me. I've made a lot of money from Elite Dungeon and guild castle drops. I was fully geared, my PVP tournament was creating a lot of hype and interest. I was feeling good. Greed got to me. A friend told me the old Orcs Dungeon bug was still able to be abused, and seeing that the cards were worth a lot, I went with him (I'm not pushing the blame here). An instance dungeon, GMs can't catch you right? Wrong. I was then swiftly banned throughout all my accounts, and some borrowed accounts as well.
Just a day ago, I was told my appeal did not succeed, and I am now under the Gepard-ban list - one of the few players to be on the list. Even though I've managed to bypass the Gepard ban in 15 minutes, RO is no fun if you don't have friends or can't talk to them, and hence, this will be my last and final goodbye. Life is just too short to be banned thrice.
During the 7 years, I have:
- Co-founded Renaissance
- Co-founded Valiant Guardians
- Revived Resurrection
- Co-founded Legends
- Co-founded the UGA
- Co-founded Autumn
- Named 7 Elite Hero Weapons (Arcaena, Ripclaw, Equinox, Beheader, Dominance, Gravita, Halberd of Legend)
- Recommended 2 players to be Support Players (Lightning Boltman v1 and Faelnirv)
- Been part of Adversary
- Been part of Ghosts
- Been part of Revolutionary Front
- Been part of Notorious
- Been part of No Fear
- Gathered 100,000 warrior skulls
- Had a total of 18 Elite Heroes at one point of time
- Helped Zeta division climb from worst division to overthrowing Beta for 3 months.
- Hosted GvG tournaments
- Hosted PvP tournaments
- Had a Q&A thread running since the forums was restarted
- Survived The Great Rollback and made an earning
- Earnt nearly 500b from Addax Cards (having nearly 100 when I quit from 500m to 6b)
- Owned 7 rares
- Had 2 ISes sucked from the storage bug (when it was changed from 999 to 700)
- Wrote 24 guides - all removed now
amongst other accomplishments.
For my goodbye this time, there are less people I'd like to mention, but they are in no way less important than those before
VJLINK - Thanks for scamming my zeny when I first returned. The casino roulette guy sure is rich now.
Apuru, Vea, Xel, Eve and the Discord fam - Going to miss you all so much.
Ryan - Can you believe it? We spent nearly 6 months trying to ban each other and now we're gay as fuck.
Sky - I'm sorry I got your account banned. I hope the appeal works out for you - you had nothing to do with it.
Icy Veins and the RF gang - Thanks for taking me in, and honing a lot of my skills by duel practices.
Xadsyath - I'm sure we'll be seeing each other in real life some day.
Hao, Med and @go 5 gang - WoE was fun while it lasted.
Juls - I hope you still stay in the server despite me leaving.
Jung, Melody Rose - Thanks for making me laugh like a retard during my midnight shifts. Nights are going to be quieter without you guys.
There are a few more people who've made my last 2 months in Dreamer really interesting, but won't be mentioned (mostly because I forgot who you were lel). Thank you for the memories. I'll be hanging around forums until Ciassu completes my final siggy, and odds are I won't return to the server (unless the bans are lifted, which is unlikely). For those who wants to keep in touch with me, PM me for my social media / ways to contact me.
Ragnarok is a dying game. Cherish what you have - people only start missing things when they are gone. My name is Xero, and this is goodbye.